The day after you return from any trip is always hard it’s an added Monday after a long break , sometimes when you balance so much then step back to pick it up again is a huge task, to add insult to this the clocks went back .
the kids woke around 830 am body clock wise 730 am for them, for Oscar a slow start he didn’t start well took him a while to get going discovering all his toys and books , making sure they were as he left them we managed to change the bottom half ! But stayed in pjs all day , he had been invited to a Halloween party with his school friends but he really wasn’t in the right head space today he needed to adjust to being home, and I knew if I pushed him he would have struggled at the party and potentially ruined it , it was a decsision I feel that was for the best but I did feel bad that autism had won today and stopped him enjoying something as he loves any celebration , Easter, Christmas , birthdays , Halloween as long as they are controlled .
I am however very anxious myself about fireworks this week , it’s not that he doesn’t like them far from it , but he is medicated at nighttime and they can disturb him and last time he had a bad abscent seizure resulting in an ambulance .
its the outside factors that are very hard to control as an autism parent as we can work on things at home and can control those things , it’s very hard to keep the calm child entertainer routine up 24 /7 but I think that’s why it’s good advice to try and control your own anxiety ,as for me oscar does pick up on it which isn’t helpful .
I’m going to be tapping into the support network I have this week, through friends and support groups and I feel it’s really important to remind yourself to not attempt to struggle alone and be open and honest about how your managing, and be transparent that way you don’t find yourself down the lonely hole that can open up for you , if your open another autism parent or friend will come pull you out or climb in with you
very grateful for the supports I have
